Autism: a day in the life

You’ll never know the tears we cry
Some days our patience they do try
For while on the outside my demeanor’s strong
Inside my heart breaks as things go wrong

There are the few, other autism mom’s who understand
How fast things go wrong,  not as planned
Tonight my strength and patience won
Despite a massive meltdown the day was fun

For as she stood outside finding courage to try something new
Many passed by, she was understood by few
I talked, begged because surrender to her fear we could not
Despite how scared she was frozen in that spot

She cried, she screamed and begged to leave
Inside I cried praying her strength she’d believe
Slowly,  45 minutes this internal battle she fought took
She used her self talk while her entire body shook

But eventually small…oh such small steps she made
We looked in the window her fears belayed
Look a shop, some stuffed animals and puzzles too
The sight of these brought her courage anew.

Once inside I wanted to shout hooray
Our trip not wasted we’d saved the day
In line we stood her body still a little did quake
But Cecelia was returning her fears in our wake

Slowly but surely inside our journey did lead
From her autistic fears her mind slowly was freed
Once she saw a fish through the glass
The last of her hesitation did pass

All this while forget little sister we must not
Because she too had a battle that she fought
For when you’re 5 and excited for the aquarium to see
Waiting on an autistic sister is as hard as can be

But Glenna’s patience and understanding did show
As she waited for Cecelia’s courage to grow
So proud of her this mommy is tonight
Because she has her own internal battle to fight

So while the day in the end was a success
My body is tired from the havoc and stress
But move forward and try some more
For that is our battle to help our children soar!
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Our road trip to Seward to the Sea life Center

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Cecelia having a total autistic panic attack because she’s too scared to try to walk inside the Sealife Center

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About annstrongheart

About me...hmmm where to start. I'm a proud single/widowed mom of two beautiful girls who currently works full time for the local Tribe. Life. Is. AWESOME!
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