6 years








6 years ago. …it still hurts so much. I still have flash backs and panic attacks of your heart attack…giving you CPR…trying to breathe for you….

Tonight the pain is so deep…the memories so clear. I hurt, my heart aches and I’m so pissed off at you for dying.

Your baby starts kindergarten on Wednesday. ..you’re not here to accompany her on this next big step.

You’ve not only missing so much but we miss you so much. I struggle to help the girls understand.  Just yesterday they asked if we could call you on the phone. It’s so hard. …why’d you leave us….we miss you so much!

Tonight your memory rips my heart in two. I cry quietly.. .alone in my bed…trying to remember what it felt like to have your arms around me.

Quietly I weep for tomorrow I again must be strong. But tonight. ..for a moment I let these tears cleanse my hurt….

6 years….6 years….


About annstrongheart

About me...hmmm where to start. I'm a proud single/widowed mom of two beautiful girls who currently works full time for the local Tribe. Life. Is. AWESOME!
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One Response to 6 years

  1. {{{{{{{Ann, Cece, and Glenna}}}}}}}} 😥 😥 ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ I'm so sorry. It's so hard to be alone. Sending many prayers for all of you.

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